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today i took the bus the the Crest to see LAWERENCE OF ARABIA. it kicked fucking niggers asses. what sucked is i had to leave about half an hour early to catch the bus. it was widescreen mother fucker, should have seen it. next thing good there is WAGES OF FEAR by the g who directed DIABOLIQUE. its about some ttruck drivers who get some money if they drive a truck of nitro gliceran without gttn blownup or something. i might go see LAWERENCE again if these 2 pussies here are man enough to take it, which they arent. haki said 'i want to see it but i dont, you know what i mean'. i said NO. instead they stayed here and played a computer game and rented LAWNMOWER MAN, haji thought it was good. he has officialy lost any credibility in taste he may have had. that shit movie over david lean. what the fuck. i taped EAT DRINK MAN WOMAN but the sound was fucked up, you couldnt hear it. si itaped MIDNIGHT RUN on the tape instead. the former aint on agoain this month anyway, only dubbed, and fuck that. we watched POTEMKIN today. it was cool, but the set up was shitty as fuck. this damn one mother fuk by me kept breathing really loud and it pissed me off. and when he would swallow his coffee. i wanted to make him die. next week were watchin somtin called EARTH. all the people here really liked those pictures of pierced cunts. thanks man. i ride the bus al ot now and i lissten to peole. i always here a couple of testos talkin about beer and parties, i swear, every time. i listen to the way people talk, and what they say, and what they do, and what they like, and you know what? it just reinforces what i knew all along, people piss me off. im jsut goonnna make this a collection of a few days thoughts and words instead of one day only, and send it all every week or so, or however much when shit. in my film class,it was bright and you couldnt see very well, and the seat sucked. haji gave me a box of cigars for CHRISTmas, kicks ass. that choi girl told me she wrote me a letter and i never got one. she said this over the break so it would have come by now. i dont believe her. im reading NAUSEA by Sartre now. its pretty cool. he always talks about his existant and not and shit. quote, "I live alone, entirely alone. I never speak to anyone, never; I receive nothing, I give nothing"
today the fukers were willing to see LAWERENCE and we got there and it wasnt playin no more. that pissed me off. so we went to old sac to go to this store they had and on the way there is a record shop. this place kicked the fucking shit out of both off the records combined, vinyl wise anyway. they had vinyl up the ass. they had a billion soundtracks, including SINGIN IN THE RAIN. one must have been an original or something cause it was 75 bux. another was 15, but i couldnt afford it. they had a shit load of movies too, and cheap. i got BEYOND THE VALLEY OF THE DOLLS for 10 and ONE FLEW OVER THE CUCKOOS NEST for 8. they had APPOLO 13 letterbox for 10, if you wanted it. NAUSEA; "Every existing thing is born without reason, prolongs itself out of weakness and dies by chance." hardcore as a nigger. i have been using the old 'jesus was a bastard' thing around here and the god lovers get pissed. its a very true statement and they are in denial. i was telling daddy and he just put his hand on his forehead and starting shaking his head in disgust. it was a pleasurable thing to watch. i dont think we have used it on choi. those christinans say it aint so because its gods son. thats bullshit. if you look up 'bastard' in the dic, it says an illegitamate child, not an illegitimate child whose father was not god. mary and joe were married, she had a kid, it wasnt his, and thats that. there is no denying it, jesus was (is) a bastard. haleluiah, praise they lord all mighty. bless me father for i have sinned. go to hell. daddy said i was going to hell, and he didnt care. i dont think thats being a good christian, do you? he thinks athiesm is a big joke or something. he wont be laughing when hes not praising god up there in heaven after he dies. ignorant fuck. how in the hell can you believe in heaven. crock of shit, man. good old jean-luc. those people at entertainment weekly are stupid. they gave THE USUAL SUSPECTS a 'b', but then put it as the 5th worst movie of the year. hypocrites. DEATH AND THE MAIDEN in letterbox is on soon. i got myself a black book telling me when i gots to tape shit at. i went to target, and they had these 3 packs of MGM tapes for 4 bux. thats like 1.33 per tape. i bought all 4. now i have 20 120s and 6 160s.
today i had my comp lit class. we talked of NAUSEA. we had to go around in a circle and say what we felt about it. we are alone (basically) in this world. we are like the character in that book. we are like the g from THE STRANGER. we like that stuff while others are chased away. i swear 90% of the people didnt like the book. they made comments like: 'it scared me', 'it was everything i dont want to be, alone, nothing', 'when i read things they rub off on me, id didnt want this to rub off on me'. shit like that. peopole who did like it didnt like it for good reasons. when she asked me, i said that i liked it and i agreed with much of what it said (people probably dont like me now) like we are here by chance and how he rejected this guys selling of humanitarianism. i liked all all of what they didnt. my class has a bunch of miss louises. Now were reading WAITING FOR GODOT, which is a play. it is also supp to be existential, and will probably kick ass. right now im supp to be writing an eng essay and analyixe a goddamn mall. i dont like it. so im doin this instead. people in my film class are stupid. we were discussing in groups how Eisentein worked and shit and they were so wrong. I dint comment cause i hadnt read the reading but i knew they were wrong. then one guy said something about how he chose it to be silent. i said, no, it is silent cause it had to be. they didnt have sound till '27. then some glamour lookin spic was starin at me, like i was a freak for knowin that or something.
I read CRUMB can't be nominated for best doc cause it debuted in 94 at Toronto film FES Fest.
Flat out fucked.
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EW had an article on K. Winslet.
It seems she likes to roll her own smokes.
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You are a fag.
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Youve got a big horse
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From existential thing by Sartre:
"Abandonment: It is the realization
that God does not exist" Word, my brother.
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Holy shit.
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Why the fuck ain't Harv Keitel in the back of the Bible.
Fuckin Mac Culkin got a list. Harv beats his sorry ass
any day. It don't even have Borgie.
That is a crime.
did you Know a dago tried to tell me that Steve Spielberg
was the best director of all time. I said "fuck you"
He also said Dustin Hoffman was better than Bob.
I said "fuck you."
I said "fuck you."
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Listen you fuckers, you screwheads, heres a man who
would not take it anymore.
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Sweet Jesus.
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My pissy roommate likes that "After Hours" song now.
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HOLY SHIT
Jesus was a bastard
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